Near the end of 2018....

This year didn't end quite as I planned, for a few reasons, first off the elephant in the room, Weight - I am heavier than I was at the beginning of the year. The second thing, is my hand/wrist or whatever you want to call it, has not healed.... but we are a step closer to knowing what it is... there is a lump sitting on the tendons or nerves (yet to be confirmed), so every-time those nerves or tendons get used it causes a huge sharp pain, so what does this mean, for now I am splinting it, in the hopes the lump may disappear, which is highly unlikely and it looks like surgery is going to be the only option, but we need to hope it has not binded to the tendons or nerves, if that is the case the surgery wont be very nice. For now it s a wait and see, till the specialists etc are back on deck in the New Year. It is a minimum 6 week recovery time, I am glad that we know what it is, well we have a good idea, we just dont know the extent of it for now. I go back to the GP on Friday.

So where does this leave me, well I am grateful I have not gained all the weight back, but I can feel I have gained too much back, I can feel it in my back, in my clothes and just generally feel crappy. I am planning on getting back to the gym, but wont be doing many upper exercises I dont think cause of the wrist/hand, but I can do cardio and lower stuff...... 

Christmas was very quiet this year, the twins were in Auckland at their dads, David went to his sisters and I stayed home all by myself with the puppies. The weather was scheduled for heavy rain and thunder, and we dont like leaving Chico alone as she has seizures when stressed. Having said that I really enjoyed the time to myself. David has 2 weeks of work, well only 1 week left now......

Dont really have many plans over the next week, as I am still doing some nails, David has some more time off end of January, so might do some day trips then. 

So there you have it, I am sure I had more to say but cant remember off hand what it is.... so below is the goals for 2019.

GOALS FOR 2018:

Gym:
I am starting back tomorrow, how I am going to go, I am not sure. Will be playing it by ear..... It may just be small bouts to begin with, till I can get some fitness back, and will also depend on how my hand holds out. I really want to be going back 5 days a week again by February at the latest.

Food:
We (David & I) are both starting back tomorrow doing lower carb, we both know it works well and we always feel better when we are on track. I am still going to be eating all veges and fruit though. Am not going to lie, its going to be a struggle getting back on track... but I have too, I hate how I feel after gaining some of the weight back. 

WEIGHT:
My goal for this is to lose 40 Kilo's by the end of 2019, this will happen by going to the gym and eating lower carb throughout the whole year. This works out to be about 770 grams a week. I am not sure if I am going to weigh weekly, monthly or daily, there are advantages and disadvantages to each. But I think weekly is prob my best option. I have not hopped on the scale in a while and am dreading the first weigh in, but I have to do it. Weigh in will be Monday's (if I do weekly), so first official weigh in will be tomorrow - scary shit, let me tell you :(. 

NAILS:
My goal for this is to be working minimum 30 hours a week, by the end of the 2019. I have just changed brands and my motivation has returned, which is nice. I plan to do minimum 4 courses this year to keep the motivation going, as well as pushing myself outside of my comfort zone.