Struggling.....

I am not going to lie, I am really struggling, I have lost motivation for anything. 

I know it will come back, am hoping it will be sooner rather than later. I didn't go to the gym today, for no reason except I couldn't be bothered. I wont be going tomorrow, have courier parcels that are arriving in the morning, that I need to be home for (work stuff), I could go after but I wont, so I am not even going to  pretend that I am even thinking of going. 

I know I never mentioned food in the last post, I did mean too, but somehow just forgot too..... Food is about 60% good, 40% bad, I need to change that around. I have not weighed and am dreading the first weigh in, I know I have gained, I can feel it, and I know not weighing is doing more harm than good.

The pain in my wrist/hand is a little better (I think), but until I do some nails and go back to the gym, I wont really know for sure. I go to the doctor on Friday morning. Tomorrow I plan to spend most of the day in the nail room, reorganising a bit, and swatching all the new stuff that has/is arriving in. 

Ok thats the negatives, let's focus on the positives, this weekend, I am going to set up the Christmas tree in the lounge, and hopefully the nail room. Feeling Christmasy might make me feel more positive. 

I do plan to go to the gym on Thursday, though a part of me is thinking just start on Monday with a new week, food and exercise wise. I do know the pain in my wrist/hand is playing a huge part in how I am feeling, nerve pain sucks big time. Even just typing this up is causing me to spasm, I need to remember that I am not doing any damage so need to keep using it, no matter how painful. Oh thats right, we are suppose to be talking about the positive ;).

Anyway thats it, catch you later - am really going to try and get into the Christmas spirit this week and that will perk me up :). 

Not much happening.....

Since my last post nothing has happened, didn't have a car all week, so have not left the house since Monday. David used my car all week, to be honest I didn't care as my wrist/hand has been playing up. Weather has been wet, cold and just blah all week, so be honest not leaving the house hasn't been too much of an issue. 

The wrist/hand is still taped up, it is starting to feel a bit better, nails have been a little difficult to do, but am getting there. It is suppose to rain all week again, which I am sure is not helping with the pain. Where the fuck is Spring, hell we are hitting Summer in about a week, and we have had nothing but cold, wet miserable weather....

Not sure what my plans for the week will be, all I know for certain is I see my doctor on Friday and have some nails to do. 

Have been watching the race this afternoon, in case you don't know what race I am talking about, it is the Supercars in Newcastle Aussie. 

I don't really have a-lot to say, as I have not been doing much, not sure of it will be the gym tomorrow or not, to be honest I am really struggling getting up before 9am. This is so not like me as I have always been an early morning person. Not sure if it is because I am having a restless sleep due to the pain so am just sleeping in or what, well thats all I can think of......

Hopefully in the next week or so things will sort themselves out....

Anyway thats it for now... be back later in the week :). 

Swapped days.....

Monday:
Ended like this :)

Tuesday:
Today has become a stay at home day, no gym, as David has my car, as his is being a little temperamental, so said to take mine today and will do gym tomorrow. This works out ok, as I have clients today anyway. 

I know they said it was going to be cold today, but who expected the South Island to have so much snow, and we had a morning temperature of 3 degree's, and its currently 13 degree's and suppose to have rain and thunder this afternoon, and a high of 14 degree's with a high of 13 degree's tomorrow bbbrrrrrr. Where the f**k is Spring, and hell Summer starts in a couple of weeks. 

Whoops forgot to post this morning, after it was done, in the meantime, it has hailed and thunder and heavy rain....

Oh and no gym, David is taking my car, might do a workout from home, have the stuff needed :).

Did I or Didn't I......

I didn't - I didn't go to the gym yesterday, I had planned too, but just never got there..... I did go 4 times last week though :) 

But anyway a new week has begun, and am hoping to go to the gym 5 times this week. I went this morning, and did strength training and bike. I also met my physio there (hence why the time is out for the strength training). We talked about the pain in my hand, we both think it is nerve pain that has come back, and have talked about a few different things to try over the next week or two. 

Still feeling blah, but think that is more due to the pain rather than anything else But am not going to let it bring me down, because it is nerve pain, I know there is nothing physically wrong with it. It's just the bloody spinal cord sending wrong messages to my stupid brain. I have beaten it once before, I will beat it again. If none of the things the physio mentioned help, then I may need to go on Gabapentin or Pregabalin again for a short stint. I have an appointment with the doctor next week Friday, so have nearly 2 weeks to see if I can get it better before we try meds again. 

Wonder if we will get the rain they have said is suppose to happen the last few days, it does look like rain and is suppose to rain for the next few days. 

Anyway thats it for now - catch you later :)

Weekend.....

Friday - ended like this..., sleep was a little better, but last night was less again, stupid pain in my wrist is keeping me tossing and turning a bit. (The Apple Watch records my sleeping). 

Saturday:
Did my clients nails this morning, so now done and dusted for the week, then when I had finished her, I went to the strawberry truck, before they ran out, as it is suppose to rain tomorrow, so probably wont be going to the strawberry farm. So wanted to stock up just in case, and they are so bloody expensive here, selling for $15.00 for 1 kg :(, considering the strawberry farm, is $23.00for 3kgs.... 

Am feeling a bit blah today, oh and it is a gym free day today, hopefully be there tomorrow, no I will be there tomorrow.

Food for the week so far overall has been pretty good, I would say 90% good, and 10% slightly of track. No major binges though, like a dozen chocolate bars, ice-creams, lollies and whatever else my body wanted.  

Anyway thats about it for today :). 

Friday is here....

Thursday ended like this... Yip water needs to be better as per usual, sleep was not that great either.

Friday:
And the week is nearly over, sleep again was not that great, and I struggled to get up for the gym, I even slept through my alarm twice (well I think I did, because I got up 25 minutes late, or maybe I just cant remember turning it on to snooze mode). I did get to the gym and proud of myself for getting there, cause I sure has hell did not want to go. I still managed to burn 842 active calories, and I felt every one of them. I did the hand cycling as the elliptical's I like to use were taken :(. 

Have nails pretty much all afternoon, and a set to do tomorrow morning, David is doing overtime, and tomorrow is his last day, so we can start doing things on the weekend again, like going to the Farmers Market in Tauranga. Depending on the weather on Sunday, we may go to Whakatane and go strawberry picking at 'Julians Berry Farm', they also have a nice cafe, mini golf etc... 


Anyway thats it for today, if anything exciting happens will let you know tomorrow. :)

The weeks are going just to fast.....

Wednesday ended like this - I forgot to add in my water though. This was a no gym day :).

Thursday:

Bloody hell the weeks are going by just too fast.... anyway back at the gym today, after yesterday being a gym free day. Did strength training today and boy I felt it alright, burnt 1122 active calories :).

I do have concerns with my CRPS hand/wrist, the last 3 or so days, it has been pretty painful and it keeps cramping up, so my fingers are stiff...... It could be a number of things, reduction in pain meds, did something to it at the gym, I thought it might have been the rainny weather, but it hasn't rained for a couple of days. I see my physio on Monday, so if it is still like that on Monday, will talk to her about it. 

I have been following this women on Youtube, who weighed over 500 lbs and her weight loss journey, she is currently going through excess skin removal.She lost this weight through hard work and sheer dedication, I will link her here, if you need some motivation, she is one to follow :) - Jacquelines Journey and love the name lol.

Food since I have decided to go back to basics and just not stress about it, has been awesome, and I am feeling good not stressing over it. Its not perfect, but I am not pigging out on chocolate, chips, and whatever else my heart desired.Today was at the supermarket and I am not going to say it wasn't easy avoiding all the Christmas sugery delights. But instead of having a major pigout, I opted for a small chocolate bar, and it felt good and I throughly enjoyed it, and didn't feel deprived which under normal circumstances would have turned me into a piglet. So as long as this is working for me, and the scales keep going on the way downward I will stay like this. I am still trying to keep on the lower side of carbs though for the majority of the foods. 

So there you have it for today, catch you all tomorrow - a gym day doing a lower body/core workout, or maybe a cardio workout, will see how I feel in the morning :)

2nd day back :)

Tuesday:
Another day, another gym day - Today was lower body/core work. This morning I did struggle getting out of bed, but I thought to myself to not be so lazy, it is only the second day and jumped out of bed...... ok slowly rolled out of bed. 

The gym session took a bit out of me today, but I did love it. I did my new workout and added back in the elliptical, only did 5 minutes to see how it goes. So far so good, the pain in my wrists is still pretty sore :(

Anyway here are my gym stats, burnt a total of 996 Calories. 

Tomorrow is a gym free day, am tempted to maybe go for a small walk, but then that might just be a stupid thing to do, and should probably wait till I have seen my physio on Monday. 

I have decided food wise to just keep it simple, eat healthy, keep carbs/sugars to a minimum, especially processed carbs, this morning I had toast (Low carb bread from frozen), with peanut butter. I am going to stop having protein bars etc.... I will weigh regularly and use the scales as a guide, if after a gain, I will review what I am doing and how I can change it around. Basically a lot of trial and error. Oh and the scales have come down from yesterday, yes I am weighing daily for now, and to stop the numbers doing my head in to much, I am weighing in pounds :). I also know there will be fluctuations in the scales, and wont go silly if I have a gain, I will review it over the week or so.......

So there you have it, am feeling pretty good about my choices for now :). 

Yes......

MONDAY:

I am back, went to the gym, and loved it, yip loved every minute of it..... managed to burn 1051 active calories. Breakfast was a good choice, a slice of low carb toast, with some scrambled egg, ham and a little cheese. I also am back drinking water and not just diet coke. Stress should be a lot less now, that I can get back into a routine. It's been about 2 weeks since I last went to the gym. 

Yes I did weigh in, the scales were not kind to me, but nobody's fault but my own. I ate like a pig, I didn't care and did I say I just didn't care, well I do care now, but at the time I didn't...... But I am back, I am not giving up, so we start again. 

We purchased one of those spiral vegetable things, so we can make zucchini noddles etc....., we had them on Saturday night with butter chicken. I need to find different ways top cook these noodle things :). 

One thing I have noticed over the last few weeks, is that my pain level in my wrists/arms has increased heaps. There could be a number of reasons for this, pain med reduction, eating crap high carb foods, the wet/colder weather we have been having. But I am looking forward to the decrease in pain..... we have no junk food in the house, and I have said to David that when we go to the supermarket we are not allowed to ask each other if we want a treat. 

Food wise, what am I going to do, I was thinking WW (apparently it is now called WW not Weight Watchers as it is supposed to be based on the more holistic sort of diet, or something like that anyway lol), anyway decided I didn't want to track food as it also leaves me open to treats if it fits in my points, this also means that calorie counting is out for me as well. I was thinking lower carb, (keto is just to strict for me), this counts out eating sugar/carbs foods which is what I need. I then thought just eating normal everyday healthy food, avoiding sugar and processed foods, which means fruit is still on the list, but limiting to max 3 pieces a day. I would love this option as what ever I choose has to be a life long choice. I would still be limiting my carbs (mainly processed carbs), but any vegetable will be fine. 

Anyway that's it for now....... 

Am 99% there....

Friday:

I am back, well I will be come Monday, a few last things to organise this weekend, and then I am back into my boring but happy routine. 

Going back to the gym, eating better and less stress. Boring but thats ok, I love boring - especially after the last couple of weeks. 

We still have fireworks going off from midday to past midnight, Chico is a mess, and we can expect them every weekend till the New Year grrrr...

To make myself feel better I have been listening to 'The Sweet', (band back in the days), forgot how much I loved their music, and the'Bay City Rollers'..... 




I watched Bohemian Rhapsody yesterday, thought it was really good. 

Anyway just a quick update, looking forward to getting back into everything again

Have great and safe weekend one and all, the weather is not looking to bad, yesterday we were suppose to have rain for the next week, now it is saying fine and cloudy for the weekend, with a high of 22 degree's - our hottest day yet :).

Update and getting back to normality........ I think

Whoops, started this yesterday but finishing today :)

I think things are settling down a bit, well hoping so, I have not been to the gym for over a week, as I have been dealing with this issue, but things are calming down, hopefully in a couple of days, things will be back to normal. My food has been so out of whack, I sometimes don't eat till 3 or 4 pm, which means it is food on the run and for me that means things I shouldn't be having, but for now, food is the last thing on my mind. 

Next week for sure, I will be back on track, though the scales wont be my friend for that I am sure. I have not weighed, yip no other reason, I am in denial and right now I couldn't cope with the numbers on the scales.

Now onto other things:

FIREWORKS:
Grrrrr they are going of 12 hours a day, which means Chico is a mess from 12pm too 12am if not longer, and most days, and from now till the New Year we can expect it most weekends. Am glad Rusty is ok with them, hopefully he doesn't pick up on Chico's fear.

NAILS:
This has taken a back seat this week, not only with clients, but paperwork, social media etc... which is not good, but again for now there is not a lot I can do about it this week. I just don't have the energy, speaking of energy.....

ENERGY:
Whats that, I just don't have any and why number one, because my food is crap - simple as that :) 

SKY:
Still having issues with sky, keeps losing satellite, never had this issue with the last box, but anyway got sky coming out this afternoon, hopefully to sort this one and for all.

Think thats it for now :)

MIA

Yip I have been missing in action for a couple of days - why because shit all has happened, had nothing really to report. 

Tuesday:
Not too has much happened, waited for sky, they changed the sky box out, but we still seem to be having some issues ggggrrrrrrr. Had a few nails to do and that was about my day :)

Wednesday:
Today we worked a new gym routine for upper and lower body, as I was getting bored with the old one, and finding it no longer a real challenge, so the next one is more challenging so looking forward to getting back into it. Was busy with clients today again, so that was about it for Wednesday.

Thursday: 
Now onto today, no gym, it is pouring with rain and just yuck and did I mention cold, it is the 1st November and it is only 11 degrees with a high of 14 and thunderstorms. So why no gym, well because Miss Chico, she tresses with thunder and heavy rain and has had seizures in the past, so we try not leave her alone when this happens. I might do part of my workout at home, as I have a swiss-ball, weights, stepper etc... 

This afternoon have clients again and I will do my nails as well seeing as I have the time today. 

So there you have it, and yes the stress situation is still there.... but hey for now cant do to much about it.